Why did Kriegzar fail at life?

Certain Perks about me and why I hate life now.

→I have Failed at life

• I was smart, I was fuckin intelligent,

What went Wrong when all we did try was to make some bullshit enginnering exams, I was better, maybe i am not better, maybe i am just dwelling on the youtube knowledge without going deep into the Subjects,

Maybe I am not worthy, Maybe i do not deserve it, maybe it is all for nothing, It truly sucks what is happning and i have no contriol over the situation, i am fucking struggling to pass my board exams forget fuckin being the TOP 1%, it is them who will suceed, statistically quit trying to be smart play the long and better game, FUCK LIFE

→ I am gonna change that,

1. Indentify what are the flaws in the implementation of the software this is not going to be easy it requires tremendous efforts,
2. It fuckin hurts it really does. it pains me from inside of what I was capable, everything of me is being snatched this is not acceptable,
3. is it all i am worth? it fuckin pains no i will not numb it, I WILL NOT NUMB IT,

I am scared, I was scared i will be scared, i dont wanna be scared what am i afraid of? i do not know, It requires deep introspection, fuck fuck fuck, shit my life really is on the verge of ruins

this is the last stop the last track the last point, its now or never. aint nothing worth doing, i fucked up.